I feel so crap when I post some things
Then I remove them and think “why did I do that? I’m entitled to feel that way”
But then I just remove it again
it’s like we’re not allowed to feel. Know that “feeling” too
If you have suffered a tragedy and someone says, “you’re in my prayers” with sincerity, and you respond with some egotistical shit about being atheist you are an emotionally inept moron.
For real though, like think about it. If someone is religious, there’s really no kinder sentiment they can express than appealing to the highest power they know for your recovery. Whether or not you think it “works” is irrelevant— the kindness is absolutely real.
[TW: child sexual abuse] Many survivors hold particularly shameful feelings if they needed attention and affection and did not fight off sexual advances because of those needs, or if they sought out that affection. The closeness may have felt good to you. You may have adored your abuser. You may have loved feeling like Grandpa’s special little girl. Women say, “I’m the one who asked for a back rub,” or “I kept going back,” or “I climbed into bed with her.” But you were not wrong. Every child needs attention. Every child needs affection. If these are not offered in healthy, nonsexual ways, children will take them in whatever ways they can, because they are essential needs.
You must learn her.
You must know the reason why she is silent. You must trace her weakest spots. You must write to her. You must remind her that you are there. You must know how long it takes for her to give up. You must be there to hold her when she is about to.
You must love her because many have tried and failed. And she wants to know that she is worthy to be loved, that she is worthy to be kept.
And, this is how you keep her.